I have always had it....this fear of missing out. Perhaps that has always been the reason why I chased so many ambitions and stayed so busy and engaged with so many things. Perhaps it was the reason why I worked two jobs while I studied. Perhaps it was starting my own projects even though I was swamped by already running ones.

Perhaps, perhaps perhaps....


This fear of missing out...of knowing that there is something better is very pressing though. I remember imagining being able to tell people what I did and show it to them instead of talking about some complicated setup which no one understood. Now I have such a thing I yearn for a complex inexplainable project.

Perhaps the human mind works in mysterious ways too.