"I was afraid, no...nervous...no no...afraid, I was afraid of what the outcome would be..." she pauses to catch her breath "..of our conversation."
"Why?" I ask
"Well, I know we should talk and you told me that aswell..." she pauses again "...that's why I delayed this."

"There is no escape!" I whisper
and I can just barely hear her mumble "I know..." before she hangs up!