"I have taken many steps...." he says "...and have made many attempts..." he pauses briefly "...to take my life!"

I look at him acting surprised to hear this while I'm being anything but.

"But everytime right in the final moments...." he again pauses and I keep my silence in fear he would never finish his sentence "...life itself betrays you, by showing you something, someone worth living for...." he continues "....and we gotta be thankfull for that!"