"I was impressed"

"Is that a good thing or a bad thing?"

"It's neither.......just an impression"

"Ah I see"

Sun rises, the light fills the room and the thick curtains cannot hold back the morning anymore. This equilibrium of serenity and chaos is broken by the loud screech of the alarm clock.

The morning has come. And is here to stay. He closes his eyes and daydreams of waking up in a different time and a different place. And wonders whether he would then wake up as a different person.

Some questions are not meant to be answered

There is this sense of peace!

Fulfilled. Saturated!

At last....I am whole!!!

I'm the permanent shore...and today I had a meeting with a happy wave!
What more can one wish on such a beautifull day?

"I see so many opportunities..." he mumbles "...but I'm so...well whatever the word is..."
"The truth is..." he pauses "...that there is no point....either way!"
"There is no escape...no relieve...no change!"

takes a sip and continues

"It...."
This goes on for hours and I cannot disagree with a word he says. That's the scary part....

"Did you plan this?" she asks

"Contrary to popular belief, I do NOT plan this." he replies

She leans forward "So what is this then? ..." and she looks like she is searching for words with which to phrase her next question

"I believe the queston you are looking for is 'WHY?' am I right?" he says confidently "Well I cannot answer you that, all I know is that somewhere, somehow, the delicate string is damaged beyond repair....." he pauses as if he doesn't know how to say the following "...and I haven't figured out where and how that happened!"

"This is what death is like, you know?" she says "And you are going to die..."

"I'm not afraid of dying...have never been" he adds confidently

"I know.....but this kind of dying you do alone!" she looks away "not only alone...but also lonely!"

"Get the hell out of here..." he said

she trembled before asking "Why? What did I do wrong?"

"It's not something you did, but something you are going to do..." he says while standing up and waiting for her to get up too

"I don't understand.." she says, while her voice cracks and tears gather in her eyes

He sighs deep and loud "One day you will...I'm doing this for both of us..." he says calmly

She gets up looking for her things and says "You are no longer the one I met that night long ago.." as the first tear slides down her cheeks

"You can rest assured that we both are no longer those people..." he says walking her to the door and opening it for her "...and maybe we should forget about them."

She steps out of the door "They were fools!" she says before she turns away from him.

Sometimes, usually when you least expect it, a song or a mere scent takes you to a life which you could have had. You are taken back to a moment in your life that you have gone right instead of left.

You are remembered of a life that you could have had, just if you had made a different choice.

The remarkable thing is that no matter how fantastic this alternate life might seems, there is no sadness, there is just the understanding!

Somtimes, more often than you would imagine, you wish you would be faced with that decision right now once more. Then you would know what to do!

In the midst of dust airborn by jets, military and commercial, and cars against which your only effective protection is your pattu, I step into a hall with glass windows stretching from floor to the ceilling and a floor of marmer which is polished to glasslike reflections.

Once I read about the studies and researchs of our most famous Physicist of all times, Albert Einstein , about curving and bending SpaceTime to allow instantanous crossover between worlds billions of billion light years apart. The door to this hall is such a wormhole. I have stepped into another world.

I find myself staring into the horizon thinking about her.

I think of random moments I have spent with her, her infectious laughter, her amazing optimism, the way she flicks her hair and the way her hands fit into mine.

And I remember once more that this is what true happiness feels like!