"I know almost exactly how it is going to be..." he says while raising his glass to mine.
I remain silent, waiting for him to continue.
"It's going to be serene, peaceful and beautiful...." he smirks and continues "...well maybe not beautiful afterward!"
I still remain silent, holding on firmly to my drink....waiting for him to finish.
"I'll finish watching one of my favorite movies. It will be a very sentimental one, or maybe a very aggressive one...." he sips his drink "...haven't decided yet actually." he continues laughing awkwardly.
I act casually as if this is something I hear every single day, just to make sure that he keeps talking.
"So you don't exactly know how it is going to be then?" I joke and fake a smile while I sip my drink
"No.." he laughs genuinely "I guess I have to think about it even harder"
I raise my glass to him and say "There will be brighter days...because of the darker days!"

"You're right!"

"So have you thought about it?" she asks.
"Offcourse I have..." he pauses
"So? well?" She asks impatiently
"I don't know yet....I'm torned between my options." he replies while trying to casually look for his drink on the table
She looks at him "I think you should....either now or later"
He fakes a smile which can be interpreted in a thousand different ways "hmm I know!...maybe..."
"Maybe what?" she asks after waiting for him to finish his sentence for what seems an eternity.
Another fake smile is turned into a serious face midway as he stares into the horizon "...maybe we should just finish our drinks!"

"You always said: ......" and I tell her what she always told me!
She pauses for a second before she says: "My definition changed....is that ok?"

Sometimes it is just better to stop...leave it...and forget! Simply forget!

He trusts me with his secret. A secret which I don't want to know. Tells me of tales which I do not need to know. Stories I should not hear!
I try to tell him off but somehow...I belive that it is good that I know these things he tells me...not so much so I can use it against him....but more so that I think I could save him ith this knowledge.

He doesn't know this and he shouldn't....he should just tell me all of his secrets!

She calls me....unexpected...as always!
I answer my phone and she's not there....she is but she's miles away with her thoughts and her voice...talking to someone else...as always!
I call out her name....once, twice....at least four times before she hears me and says: "Oh sorry Nawid....hi :)"

Distracted as always she tells me about this and that....and gets interrupted twice in every sentence, so it seems! I'm frustrated but don't tell her this.
All we spend is few minutes before she reaches her destination and has to leave me behind.

This is exactly why I always said NO!

"This is all I can offer you" She says
He looks out of the window and says: "This is all I ask for" while he thinks to him self "You can't offer me anything and you know it!"

He calls me up and tells me all they discussed! I could have taped my side of our previous conversation. I tell him exactly the same thing as always! And he seems to be happy with that.

I think more than anything he just needs reassurance that everything is going to be allright!

"You nearly killed me..." he gasps "...but it is ok! I'm fine now!"
"I'm sorry" she whispers "Forgive me for I have hurt you so much..." her eyes water
"You didn't hurt me at all!" he comforts her "You showed me who I was and who I could be.." he continues "....I should thank you!"
She sighs deeply and finally says "I'm so glad I didn't know how great you really were....for then I would have never let you go!"
"So am I!!" he whispers barely audible

They don't say goodbye...and don't say anything...they just hang up!

He radiates with the strength of a thousand suns! Yet it is not the scorching heat of a midday at the equator, but a gentle warmth of compassion and happiness. Which gives you heat and warmth from inside out.
He talks casually of this and that, so trivial, which can all be easily forgotten if it not were for his abundant joy of being. Just being!

I used to envy him for it...now I just embrace his presence and friendship.

I was never good at hide & seek because I'd always make enough noise so my friends would be sure to find me. I don't have anyone to play those games with anymore but now & then I make enough noise just in case someone's still looking & hasn't found me yet!!

Clementine: This is it, Joel. It's going to be gone soon.

Joel: I know.

Clementine: What do we do?

Joel: Enjoy it.